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Thursday, December 15th, 2005
12:28 am	zuru, zuru, zuru zuru jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzz its been a while aint it! Well even tho its been like 2 month since I've wrote in this, not much has really happened! been out and about, worked at the Pet Shop for abroud 7 months, college is going well...ish....... Now its December and I'm worrying about xmas prezziz, and looking forward to my birthday, with me being 18 and all! cant wait! But as per normal I've got the flu and not feeling too grand! :( Was sent home from college today coz I was feeling all icky! :( But theres some good news! I'm going to some good gigs next year! Jenn is getting me tickets to go and see Alkiline Trio and Funeral For A Friend. I'm also getting for my xmas prezi and my birthday prezi my Soil ticket, and my.........wait for it............DOWNLOAD TICKET!!!!! YES! DOWNLOAD 06 HERE I COME!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D I hope Jenn and Hanny come with me this time, they said they would! Well tis getting late and all so I'm heading off now! I'll make sure I write in soon! and not in two months time! eeeeep! :x Oh well Toodles! Shell! xXxXxXx Current Mood: sick Current Music: Avril Lavigne - Get Over It! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 20th, 2005
9:01 am	That'll Dink Dank Do Well, for some unknown reason, I've got up and ready for college today, and then for some strange reason, I ain't gone in! :P Can't be arsed! one it's my last day anyway before half term. I know, I know I shouldn't, but meh! I've lost my EMA for this week anyway, as I didn't go in on Monday after Sunday Nite's events and seen as me and Jenn didn't get home till around 2-3am, I was shattered and couldn't be arsed with Sheila bitching at me for two hours in Photography! But any bets seen as tho I aint in today and no ones phoned in Stan decideds to phone and ask where I was! Meh! I cant be arsed! whats the point in 3hrs of tutorial please! I know, if I keep doing this I'll end up getting nearly kicked out again, or actually kicked out! and that would be no good! Shell has to get her act together! Me thinks I'll be going in tomorro sometime just to pin my work up on the wall and stuff! or I might go in this afternoon! Well I fancy going back to bed my self! or doing some sort of drawing! I'm not sure! AHHHHHHHHHHGGGGG!!!! The whole guilt thing starting to creap in again, that I really should have gone to college, I'm not doing myself any favours by staying off, and I could get kicked off the course if I'm not careful! HUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM I could just do a load of drawing and painting today and then sneak into college tomorro and just pin it all up to make it look like I've done lots of work! heeheeehee sounds like a plan! The fact of the matter is it dont help that I've been sent a letter to have a learning manager meeting, for some conserns! hummmmmmmmmm.....attendance possibly! Shell going back into her old ways! NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH CRAP! here comes the guilt trip again on my self! :( Does you think it matters so close to half-term? Or is my guiltiness right, that I should have my ass in college and stop nearly screwing my life up? AHHHHHHHHHH dame this mind of mine, it tells me to do things that I shouldn't and when I do them I feel all guilty! GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!! And I dont want Stan to call the house and one of my parents to anwser! :S Wow this entry is longer than I thought! Well I'll wrap this up, as I guess ya sick of me going on about how guilty I'm feeling for skipping college! :( Toodles! Shell! xx Current Mood: guilty Current Music: KoRn & Vanilla Ice - Too Cold (Ice Ice Baby remix) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
12:20 pm	FEEEEEEEEEISH!!!! Well here I am bored again in college got one lesson to go then I'm out of here! then heading to town and home! Nothing much to report really, went to Andrews house party on Sunday nite, was ok, just a normal party, with lots of people we diddn't know, sat and watched Jenn get drunk, then she ended up getting upset a lot, *hugs Jenn* then I ended up in tears at the end of the nite worrying over Hanny, as he disappeared then came back looking rather wrecked, Jenn came running in really upset, she ran up stairs me and Hanny followed, hanny trying to calm her down, me wanting to know what the hell was going on, hanny still trying to calm Jenn down, me still want to know what the fuck was going on! getting anoyed at the fact no one would tell me! then Jenn went off to try and find the phone to call a taxi, I noticed summiot was up with Hanny, Hanny passed out, then came back round, and started freaking out, someone had spiked him! I was in shock and really panicing! Jenn rushed to get Steve, and Steve looked after him! PHEWWW!! Well Hanny came round mine yesturday afternoon, to chat and watch Peter Kay and play on the XBOX with me! Then we headed out to meet up with Buff Steve and we went to Jamos to have a few drinks then headed over to Innfusion for the rest of the nite, Jenn didn't come tho, she text me and said she wasn't coming I still need to find out why??? Anywhooooooo, I ended up missing the last bus home! BALLS!!!! Thank god I didnt spend all my money for a change and got a taxi home! But now Shell has no money! My EMA backpayments better hurry up!!! Well thanks all I can think of at the moment! Nevermind! Something interesting might happen soon.........nerr! Toodles! Shell xx Current Mood: blah Current Music: Green Day - Misery (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
9:41 am	I'm Not Gonna Cry Bout Some Stupid Guy, Guy Who Thinks He's All That! Well Shell be feeling down for some reason, I don't really understand why! I guess I'm just feeling rather lonely! I mean I can be surrounded by people and friends but still feel like I'm the only one there! Take lastnite for example, Me, Jenn and Ash went to Innfusion, we were there for about just over an hour or something and we got bored really quickly, maybe coz we couldn't drink! 1. We didn't have any money! 2. Jenn was driving! So after one drink which Jamie bought me! Thanks Jamie! :) Me and Jenn left! But all the time I was there people kept asking me if I was ok? Ask I had such a depressed look on my face! I think one reason is that, Steph is doing all she can to get at me! And she's doing a dame good job! She's rubbing it in my face to much and getting me so upset! And as everyone knows what Steph is like here, she's having a GREAT time doing it! What the FUCK has gone wrong in the girls life to make her such a bitch to everyone! But me and Jenn had a bit of payback on her involving faceparty! :P MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! But anywhooooooooooo, with things being the way they are I'm just feeling down, my selfasteam is just sooooooo down the pan at the moment! Its sucks! There needs to be a bit more excitment in the life of Shell! Thinking about taking up my Karate again! I don't know? I guess I'm just feeling a bit lost is all! meh? anywhoooooooo stuck in college till 3.15pm today, think I'm going to the cinema with Matt this afternoon? dunno depends if the lasy arse can get himself out of bed! tisk tisk Nothing much exciting has happened in college yet! its Shiney Row, its gonna take a while! Well I wish I could just sit here and go on and on about the crap which is my life, but I hear everyone screaming, 'NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' So I'm just gonna wrap things up now! 'Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' Cya people, till next time! Shell! xx Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Avril Lavinge - I Don't Give A Dame (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
2:14 pm	Cause I'm broken, when I'm lonesome, and I don't feel right when your gone away! Well here I am again, stuck in the ILC for an hour! As I was meant to be in Digital Imaging for 2hrs, but seen as tho the class was way to big to fit in the bloody classroom, they ened up spliting the class into the two groups! So I have to wait for Dikka till he finishes as I was in the first class and he's in the other, and we're going down the town after! I'm buying a shiney new lovely red top from Quiz! yey! it £15 like but nevermind! after that and where ever Dikka wants to go, I'm popping up to see Jenn at work and talk about what the hell went on the other nite! She called me this afternoon, bless she be like me all hungover and reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally tired! awwwwwwwww Well what to do tonite????? hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm guess I might watch some 24 for a while, see how far I can get into the third box set!!! Finally found the missing Srubs 1st season box set in was hiding on the stairs in my art bag! tisk tisk! At least I diddn't lose it ehy! GOD! see how bored I am! I'm going on about stupid random crap again! But then again most of this journal is all about random crap! meh! Feels weird being Ian's friend again! To have him part of my life agains going to be very strange! But as long as Steph isn't going to be part of my life, I'm quite fine with it! I don't really want to be in the company of the girl that flirted with my bf, and now is going out with him, and for some strange reason it all still hurts! but I suppose as long as its just him I'm friends with, and never have to see her I'm happy just having a friendship with him! Also I find so funny that Ian's mum absolutly hates Steph, and loves me! heheheheheheheeee! oh well cant think of much more to say today! best be off to browse the net till Dikka gets here! :P developments on my life coming soon! :P Shell! xx Current Mood: blah Current Music: Rammstein - Du Hast (Comment on this)
7:31 am	WTF???? Wtf was all last nite about? Came into Innfusion, and right in front of the door way was Ian! :S Me and Jenn were quite pissed off! but meh he has every rite to be there and so do I, so I got on with it! I said hi and stuff so all was at least fine! Dikka turned up and ended up being drunk as a fart! Then Steve turned up with Rob and ended up upsetting Jenn! Then me and Ian went for a talk ended up taking me for a walk and talk, saying sorry for everything that he's done! and saying he was more or less 95% in the wrong! fair enough! I'm just happy that we can at least talk now and be friends! He gave me one of his tightest hugs ever! (oxygen was becoming an issue at one point!) lol To some things up, I ended up getting drunk! Jenn got drunk! Ian got drunk! Dikka got drunk! I got chatted up! I got apologies from Ian! And I got attacked from James! Who gave me his mood ring to say sorry! So yey Shell has a nice shiney new ring! YIPPEE!!!! Yey on me! But all in all it was a fun nite strangly? :S Well thats about it for what we had for the Monday club! :P So I'll catch you lot later! For the next exciting entry in.................. LITTLE SHELL'S EMAZING LIVE JOURNAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........... (yeah right!) Toodles! Shell! xx Current Mood: chipper Current Music: NIN - The Hand That Feeds (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 15th, 2005
12:59 pm	College is errrrrr...............boring!!!!!!!!!!!! Well I'm back in college and it sucks! Sitting in the ILC with Dikka. have Textiles and 3D next! thats gonna be fun, but I have no idea when my math lesson are????? :S Out 2nite as per normal, people are coming round mine to drink before hand, but we'll have to wait and see if I get home before anyone else does! as I don't finish college till 5:15pm and people are coming round for six! eeep! Well Jenn just called me and she's passed her driving Test! so YEY FOR JENN!!!! Gotta get her a card and chocs or sumit! or some drinks tonite! well I hope Matthew's cleared the mess in the bar otherwise its gonna look, well.....a mess! hope I don't have maths on fridays! if I don't I have fridays off! whooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! yey on me! Well thats about it for now! as normal my life remains boring! but yet people still read about it! I'll never understand you people??? :S oh well untill next time! ENJOY LIFE!!! Shell! xx Current Mood: chipper Current Music: NIN - Head Like A Hole (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
10:37 am	Lift me up, don't let me down, see the world spinning round, but your not onboard a merry go round God I aint wrote in here for donkeys! Not like me is it now! oh well things have been up and down lately, just got back from Leeds on Monday, was amazing! Just got ill from it is all! Got a REALLY sore throate and a mouth infection, so all my gums are all sore and bleeding! its sooooooooo painful, I can't eat! I guess that might be a good thing tho, I could lose some weight! but anywhoooooo Leeds was fantastic! couldn't get drunk tho, my throate couldn't take it! :( so I had to pass on the getting pissed part! Me and Jenn had so many cans of Carling we couldn't drink all of them, and with me not being a big larger fan anyway it wasn't good that when we went shopping at Tescos we bought another 24 slab! so we ended up trying to sell the cans off for a £1 each on the path way beside our tents, we didn't get much business like, we sold one, but that was only because Haly gave us some packes ofnoodles that she did't want, so me and Jenn decided to give a pack of free noodles with every can! While stocks last of course! But the only reason we sold that first can, coz the guy seemed more interested in the noodles that the can! What is wrong with people at festivals these days! don't they know your ment to replace all food intake with alcohol! I mean what happened to the liquid breakfast! tisk tisk! so yeah we ended up selling the slab for £15 on the last nite! so there, my dad wasn't happy that I didn't just bring it back for him! As always my dad, 'BEER GOOD! BEER MINE!' heehee Well I'm off work sick so thats why Im on here so early, so never mind, well now Leeds is all done and dusted, I've got lots of over things to look forward to! I'm starting fresh at college with a shiney new betec Nat Diplo in Art and Design! ok matbe starting college is not such a good thing to look forward to! But then in November I'm going to Paris with Jenn to see GREEN DAY!!!! YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SO CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!, then we have Christmas which is always fun and full of sweeties and food, and of course a hell of a lot of alcohol!!! mehehehe! And then its my BIG ASS 18th Birthday! EVERYONE BETTER BUY ME A DRINK! HEEHEEHEE!!! And of course that day will be fun, getting rat arsed going for a nice meal with all my girly chums, then all of us are getting dressed up as french maids and going out on the town! heehee! CHEEKY! ;P Well on different notes, I keep seeing Ian at random times! like when I was going over Jenn's the nite before Leeds me and my dad drove passed him, he was right next to mine, I have no idea why he was all the way next to my house! scary! then when we got back from Leeds, my dad picked me and Jenn up from the bus station, and dropped jenn off at home, when we were on our way there I asked my dad if he had seen arse hole since he said no, but was at the bus stop as I said that when we reached Jenn's, his Lord Toss Pot himself! Why he was at that bloody bus stop we don't know, Jenn says its like he's stalking us! lol And last nite, Jenn txt me saying that she was in Yate's and the horrible two walked past and she blanked them! heehee! I can't wait till I can just walk past Ian and just think he's another fave in the crowd! But at this moment in time it still feels strange! I still feel for him, but not love, that is lost, and can never be found again! But in all honesty, it still hurts! and I don't think it will ever stop! As he really hurt me, and I don't think the scar on my heart will ever heal! But I'm happy that lots people have seen him for what he really can be! And a lot of people have helped me through this, and I'm feeling so much better in my life! And just happy to have so many close friends in my life, than just an arse hole of a boyfriend that just took me for granted, and dropped me, broken and scared! What a bastard ehy! Nevermind, I have friends, and I'm happy! Oh oh oh! and by the way just to change the subject completely!!! Shell can poi dance! (for people not knowing what poi is, its like a ball on a string, and you swing them round and stuff! Like fire dancing, its just the same, just without the fire!) I'm practicing alot and have learnt some new moves and stuff, it very fun, but very difficult, I've hit myself in the head a good few times! OUCH! Well thats me all typed out for now! I'm sure something new will happen soon, in the exciting world of my life! Toodles! Shell! xXx Current Mood: sore Current Music: Yeti - Merry Go Round (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
8:37 pm	When passions a prison you can't break free! Well I'm totally shattered from work, been up and down the shop all day, catching fish, hovering, catching more fish, bagging food! catching more fish! Saving terrapins, scaring my dad with scorpions! feeding Rabbits and catching yet more fish! oh and feeding locusts to gekos! yes the life that be the Sunderland Pet Centre! I've got fridays off tho now so yippeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so now I can recover from thursday nites! and not go into work hungover! YEY! :D Well thats kind of it at the moment! cant really be bothered to write anymore really as I said Im tired from work! So I'm sorry people, thats all ya getting, of the so exciting life that be mine! So there!!! :P MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shell! xx ps. only 24days till Leeds Fest!!!!! YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D Current Mood: tired Current Music: Slayer - South Of Heaven (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
10:09 pm	In a world of pure imagination! Well its another report on the life that be mine! Oh the joy! Well Shell has found herself a job, I be working at the Pet Centre in the town, it an ok job at the moment, but I can see it getting old fast! But hey as long as I have a bit of money coming in, and when I say a bit I mean a bit! Its crap pay, £3 an hour!!!! It def not right! But as long as its something, and I'll just keep looking for a better job, with better pay is all! Well theres no news about my gran yet, but hopfully its nothing! Well I hope its nothing! Me and Jenn have decided we'll just go on a little trip this year just us, as we both feel we need to just get away from bloody Sunderland for a bit! Well I know I need a break! It seems like these past few months have been just hell! So we have decided to go and have a weekend in Blackpool! :D Of course its gonna take me a while to save up, as all the money Im earning now is going towards Leeds, as I need money to survive! and money for drink of course! Ya cant go thru a festival with out the good old alcihol can ya! But hey if anyone is in town and passing the pet store, pop in and say hi! It gets kinda lonley in there! :( when ya the only lass working there! :'( Well anywhooo best be off, I'm shattered and wanting my bed! :) Toodles! :P Shell! xx Current Mood: tired Current Music: Soil - Need To Feel (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 24th, 2005
11:25 am	And I cant take it, it wasn't fake it, it happened you passed by! Well not a good weekend I must say! Was just all set to bugger off to Brian's to go to Legends for the nite! Came downstairs then my Dad said don't disappear to soon! I was like, EH? He said ya Gran is being taken to hospital! :o whats happened to her? whats wrong? Mum told me that she had been bleeding, and feeling weak and faint, so my Aunty Morean was taking her to hospital, I went to call Brian to tell him I wont be coming to Legends, and I went to the hospital with my mum! My gran had tests and stuff, it ended up the bleeding was coming from her colon, so she's going back for more tests, in the week to see whats wrong! I asked my mum what could be the cause of it, my mum said that it could be some reasons like some random problems, or Cancer!!! .......................... Shell! xx Current Mood: worried Current Music: Avril Lavigne - He Wasn't (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 22nd, 2005
4:58 pm	So what do ya say? your coffin or mine? Well Im just so god dame tired lately, cant think why I do nothing every day! I WANT A JOB!!!! >:( Well its been a good old week really! Hung out with Jenn and people, Went to Innfusion on monday nite with everyone, then on Tuesday I went to Jenn's in the morning spent the morning with her cant remember what I did for the rest of the day like? :S On Wednesday nite I went to Innfusion again with Hanny, when He phoned me and begged me too come down with him! lol, then we went to beach for the rest of the nite, with two of his friends, ended up making fun of a guy that one of Hanny's mates had a fight with, and Hanny said he looked like 'Zolu', so then the guy started banging the ash tray on the table, like a war drum, basically taking the piss in a drunken way! lol :P Well Thursday was fun anyway,went bowling with Jenn, Steve and Rob! was really fun! I lost whoooooo!!!! Yes I suck at bowling! we then played on some games, I watched Jenn try to drive a rally car, I think she's better driving in her own car! and then I faced Rob on the Dance stage! I won yey! lol, and then I faced Steve and lost! dame! after that we all wondered around town for a bit, then Steve went to work, and wouldn't come back to the bar at mine! grrrrrrrr!!!! We bumped into Nick in town and he join us, went back to his flat for a bit and then we all headed to Jenn's so she could get ready and stuff, then we headed to mine to go to the bar! yippee! head a good few drinks and a laugh! was really fun, we then got a taxi into town and went on our normal route! well we went to Brogans so Nick could do karioke, lol But I coundn't be arsed lastnite, I was just so tired and bored! Jenn decided we'll go to Diva for a bit and if its crap we'll get the last bus home, so after flares we headed to Diva, but my luck of the nite got worse, walked straight in and low and behold straight in front of me was Steph! So that was me feeling uncomfortable all nite! But we got bored straight away and got the last bus home! I got home and went on the net to look at a pic message matt sent me! was a random part of Canada with a lovely looking lake and hills and stuff! heehee I told him to send me a pic of him in sunny america lucky arse! :P as well as that I had a reply from Ian, as I emailed him asking can we just sort everything out and be friends! He said, no, he don't think it will work! FINE! I've tried, and if he wants to be an arse hole about things well thats his choice! I told Jenn and she's had enough of him, and could kill him! She said that no matter what he say's she'll side with me, not just because she's my friend, its because she believes Im in the right about everything! YEY! I just can't believe what a tit he has become! What ever happened to the Ian we used to know and all get on with! I wish that guy was still around! :( but nevermind! I cant say I never tried! toodles! Shell! xx Current Mood: tired Current Music: Alkaline Trio - Blue in the face (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
5:47 am	Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud God I'm really going through a depressive phase right now, the problem is I don't know why! Theres more than some likely reasons I guess, And I can guess most people will have a good idea what one of them is, which Im not gonna bother typing coz everyone can guess if you've read this journal long enough! I just can't stop thinking about everything thats gone on, and then the past starts to come back to me, all the good times, and when I was so happy! And then I end up crying! Just like tonite, well I should say lastnite, but seen as tho I aint had any sleep! Well I did have some sleep, but I fell asleep at like 6pm and didn't wake up till about 10pm, so then I couldn't get to sleep tonite! I've tried just lying down and closing my eyes, but it just makes me think of things more! God why has my life become so.....I cant think of a word to describe it! I mean I should be happy, I'm kind of meeting Ben at the moment, I have a good Friend I can rely on! and I have a group of close mates that I know are there for me! So I'm not alone! But it just seems like a part of me is missing! a part of me isn't fully content! I really need to find a job, to keep me busy and get my mind off things! GOD THIS SUCKS! Im basically a, P.issed off M.ega T.ime bomb! yes that does spell out PMT! I get it really bad, and my mood swings can be deadly! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGG stupid bloody security alert popup thing! I keep clicking on the bloody thing to go away and about 17 seconds later it pops back up again! and it wont stop, and I don't know how to make it too! bastard thing! so I've just put the window to the side of the screen, can be arsed with it! Yes Im in bad PMT mode, and I've had no sleep = Dangerous Female! Its such a lovely day, wish I had something to do! Im really missing Matthew, at the moment he's back on Monday tho! Yes Shell is missing her big brother! :o Wish I had some money to get away for a few days! I just want to get away from Sunderland for a while! its just annoying me! ok wrapping this up now, otherwise I'll be here all day! Toodles! Shell! xx Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Bon Jovi - Shot Through The Heart (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 17th, 2005
11:01 am	If ya wanna step up, ya gonna get knocked down! Im just sooooooo fed up now! No matter what happens things seem to be fucked up! Ian's starting fights again with me, and its getting me down! seems like things are just going from bad to worse! He said I've made him feel guilty for going out with Steph! If he wants to go out with Steph thats his own choice! But he cant expect me to just sit around and not see anyone else! and he's ticked off at me because that I didn't tell him that I was seeing other people! ONE QUESTION! WHAT THE FUCK HAS IT GOT TO DO WITH HIM ANYWAY! ITS MY LIFE I CAN DO WHAT I PLEASE! HAS HE EVER HEARD OF A FUCKING PRIVATE LIFE! I DON'T NEED TO EXPLAIN MYSELF! God this has just annoyed me so much, I hate it! I don't like the fact that I'm arguing with a person that I once loved so much! He used to be my bestfriend, and I loved to be in his company! But now it seems like that is slipping away also! It just doesn't seem right to be fighting, and it hurts! When things are like this, it just makes me want to get away from Sunderland for a while, but in my mind running away from a problem never helps, and its still gonna be waiting for you when you get back! *sigh* *bangs head on desk* I've had enough of this shit, as Jenn said, it's getting beyond a joke now! I am not having any more arguments, I have made that choice! If I don't want to talk about something no one can make me! This is my life, not his, and he can't rule it for me! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! phewww, well that felt good! heehee! Anywhooooooo spent the day at Hanny's yesturday, just spending a bit of big bro, and little sis time together! (Me and Han have decided to adopted eachother as brother and sister, as we can always tlk to each other and stuff awwwwwwww how sweet!) after Hanny's I went into town to go get Jenn some bread, as she forgot to get some on her lunch break, I bumped into my friend Anth and we walked round to Tescos together, we headed back to Debenhams I handed a CV in, hopefully getting a reply next week! :) and then headed up stairs to see Jenn. When Jenn finished work, we headed to the cinema, and went to see Madagascar! was really funny! enjoyed it! "We like to move it, move it" lol, Yeah me and Jenn can't get that out of our heads! lol After the flick we headed back to mine, to get my stuff, as I was sleeping at Jenn's. Walked back to Jenn's and made a nice home made tex mex, and sat and watched Roswell! YEY even tho we kinda both fell asleep when we reached the first ep on the second disk! lol! oh well morning came, Jenn hand to get up and go to work and I walked back home, and here I am now! so thats kinda it for the report on the latest of my life! yeah how dull, I know! lol oh well! Toodles people!!! Shell xx Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Machine Head - Davidian (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 15th, 2005
5:46 pm	How ill am I please! ick! urrrrrrr....so ill, went out lastnite with not having anything to eat before hand, and yes got rather drunk! So I've spent most of the day being sick! It wasnt so good! :( Went for breakfast with Jenn and Laura this morning, but I just couldn't bring myself to eat it! Then I had to leg it to the toilets...yes you guessed it to be sick! so basically I was being sick at about 1am in DIVA, then waking you this morning to be sick again, then sick in the car, then in The Lambton Worm, then sick quite a few times during the day at home! yes a sick packed day people! YEY! Was a fun nite tho, till all the sickness came along and spoilt it all! and me also finding out that her royal bitchness that it Steph was also in DIVA somewhere??? While I was in the toilets practicing my new found hobby of sickness, Jenn came in and found me, and told me that Steph's here and she's seen me! me, =O, I asked if Ian was here too! but he's was at work apparently! and apparently Steph saw me twice during the nite, she was out with mummy Laura! its a shame coz I love Laura to bits but its just wherever she'll be bitch wont be so far behind! :( meh I told Jenn that if I see her, Im gonna hit her! lol but then I ended up punching the toilet wall instead! :s don't ask me why, I was angry and drunk! never a good combo! oh well nevermind! In other news Matthew has just left today to go to Canada and America for the pre-seasons, and then when he gets back home, a few days later he's off to New Zealand! lucky bugger! I want to go! :( He better bring me back something pretty! either that or he can just bring me back Canada and New Zealand! that would be nice! heehee But in sad news, I just found out the other day that Matt Crake had been killed in a tradgic traffic accident on Tuesday! It's so horrible! He was a really cool guy and he'll be missed! We had a few toasts to him last nite! RIP Matt, you will be missed! xx Shell xx Current Mood: sick Current Music: Rage Against The Machine - Killing In The Name Of (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
7:22 pm	Each night, when the day is through, I dont ask much, I just want you! Well errrrm not alot to report really, spent alot of nites at Jenn's really! went out on Monday nite with her and Laura. Was a fun nite, had a tad too much to drink tho! bad alcohol! bad alcohol! had a few drinks b4 I left the house, then bought two drinks in the Lambton Worm, then got another two drinks when we got to Infusion, then Ben bought me another two drinks! then the DJ (Tom) bought me another two drinks!!! So Shell had a rather good nite, and ended up rather drunky! :P Ended up making plans with Hanny to go over his for 11am on Saturday, to hang out and stuff! awwwww bless hanny he's mint! :) Then I ended up making plans with Ben to hang out on tuesday! which of course was yesturday! lol During the nite, Laura ended up dragging Jenn, to as she said Yatses! and said they'll only be 30mins or so! ................2hrs 30mins later, Jenn and Laura stumble back into Infusion! both totally bladdered! well I made a new friend called Lousie from down south, and she was telling me how she missed out on going to Download coz she had the Chicken pox, and then I told her my big story about my whole Download trouble! lol but all in all it was a good nite out! When we all finally got on our bus home, I told Jenn I'll give her a call to make sure she got home ok, and to also to make sure I got home ok! when I gave her a call, I had her, Laura and buff Steve telling me I should come down! So her's me getting changed out of my pjs and grabbing some stuff and heading out to Jenn's at like 1:30am! we all didn't get to sleep till like 5am! and me waking up the next morning wasn't pretty! hungover as hell, and seeing Ben, also with me looking as rough as hell! bad shell, bad bad shell! But the date with Ben went rather well, we went round to the cinema, but for some strange reason it was still closed at 11:30am??? for reasons we can not explain???? so we decided to go for a drink in Savannah, my drink being non-alcoholic of course! as my tum couldn't take it, so I just had a lovely refreashing lemonade! we then had lunch there, and then went for a wonder around for a bit. We then decided to go to Rileys for a few games of pool! And I actually won a few games! yey! after that we headed back to the cinema to see Batman Begins! Was amazing! Gonna go see it again with Matthew on Thursday! yey! But yeah, it was a fun day with Ben the other day! I got a txt off him this morning, telling me that he really enjoyed yesturday, and hope I did too! and what I would say if he asked me out? xXxXxXx well??? errrrrr???? emmmmmm???? I really don't know???? but I aint gonna reply to the txt, 1) I cant coz I dont have any credit on my phone! and, 2) Im not gonna be asked out by a bloody txt! tisk! tisk! well thats kinda it for today! cya folks! Shell xx Current Mood: bored Current Music: Ozzy Osbourne - Denial (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 10th, 2005
1:50 pm	Watch how I put it on, Kitty collar tight! Well again, its bloody hot today, its so hot in the computer room here, I've had to result in putting a bakini top on, open all the windows, and put the big ass fan on full blast! ahhhhh coolness! B) well stayed at Jenn's last nite had a girly nite with chinese food, a bottle of oh so lovely Martini Asti and a hell of a lot of Roswell! :D Im staying over her's again tonite, we're gonna attempt to try and make Sunday Lunch! YUM! thats if things dont go wrong and we burn the house down! Well seen as tho im a veggi, Im having to bring my veggi gravy over and that! im a fuss pot, as Jenn tells me, no Im not im just a vegiterian! sorry! lol :P Well college is over for the summer, and here I am with a hell of a lot of free time on my hands! So little me is trying to get a job, just finished a application form for B&Q online, and I looked into two jobs yesturday at connections, Hairdressing Receptionist and Coffee Shop assistant, both Jobs are in Newcastle so it maybe a bit hard to get to when Im back at college! hummmmm, speaking of college, next year im thinking I don't really want to take Media Studies again, so I've been thinking of taking languages instead, I fancy taking a Japanese course! just to try my hand at something really! heehee! and it means I can watch all manga movies in Japanese like they should be, and without the annoying subtitles! heeheehee! Oh well that seems to be it for today children! Bye bye everybody, bye bye! Shell xx Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: NIN - All the Love in the World (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 7th, 2005
1:12 pm	Your friendship, the good times we had ... you can have um' back! well got quite annoyed this morning, stayed at Jenn's last nite, and had to get up early to go into college to see Christine, got there to be told to come back in tomorrow about my work coz she couldn't find it! >:( so back in again tomorro about my Keyskills work and to sign my EMA form hand it in then I finished for the summer! YIPPEE!!!!!!!!! :D Well got to Jenn's lastnite, just after Ian left her's, she told me what he had been saying and stuff, and I'm apprantly being childish about the whole situation! hummmmmmmmmmmmmm???? me being childish???? how????? meh, I don't care anymore, as far as im conserned I don't give a flying shit anymore! :P I've have a better time with Jenn any day, then when I was with him! And I just look forward to going out now and just enjoying myself and getting drunk, well I haven't been that drunk in a while, but theres always tonite ehy! :P Looking forward for tonite like, don't know why exactly, but meh I mostly always enjoy my thurs nites out anyway! but as of now Im well bored, I need to print some CV's up and go job hunting, I need something to tie me over for the summer anyway, and I need some money coming in! oh well nothing more to bitch about! Toodles! Shell xx Current Mood: bored Current Music: Simple Plan - Untitled (Comment on this)
Monday, July 4th, 2005
4:32 pm	Back under the stars, back into your arms God the stress is killing me! Been in a uber bad mood all day with stress and a headache, most of it being the thought of Ian back on wednesday, but the situation has got a whole lot worse, for some bazarre reason he was online lastnite, and he went and told me that him and the BITCH that is Steph are going out! I had a feeling they were anyway, but its just the shock anyway, and I know when they get back, I'll prob see them together all the time, and I know it's gonna hurt me so much, and I know Steph is'nt gonna make anything easier on me! and I know Ian will do nothing to stop her! God it hurting me so much now just thinking of them together in my mind, god knows what im gonna be like when I actually see them together! I've tried so hard to get over things, believe me I have! But it all still hurts me so much, and I don't know how much longer I can take all of it... Well anywhooo I'm going out 2nite, guess its one of my last nites out without the toss pot and the bitch out with! After that Im staying at Jenn's for the nite, I'm prob gonna get upset and everything! Its just all loaded on my mind and just building up! at least Jenn's such a good friend and I can tell her everything, and she's always there for me when I need her! :) Shell xx Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Papa Roach - Between Angels and Insects (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 3rd, 2005
4:52 pm	I don't want to change the world, I don't want the world to change me! God what a bloody week! I've been stressing out all week, first with the fact of Adam txting me and that and I don't know what to say to him, as he is a really nice guy but he's just to old for me and I don't know how to tell him? Then theres the whole thing with Ian coming back, and now he's made things more difficult by; 1) Coming back so soon! 2) Sending a nasty email, shouting at me because I talked to a guy that "Steph knows" about him breaking up with me, and he's went off on one! 3) And that I've just found out about an hour ago that he's back on Wednesday!!! Yes I've just found that out today, as I've just got back from his parents house, as I was at Kay's Party lastnite, and she handed me Ian's brother's bus pass that she found on the bus! so I send i'll go round and return it! Went round they wern't in so I was just walking on my way home, and Rob and Bab's (Ian's parents) drove past me! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! so I decided to walk all the way back up the hill to their house! They are such lovely people, I get on so well with them, and apparently they love me! as Ian so nicely told me the day he came round to break up with me, and how they diddn't want him to break up with me! OOoooOOoooooOOOoo he's such a dick! Me and Jenn are dreading the day he comes back, which is Wednesday now! :( As we just can't stand to be around him anymore, as all he does is just annoy us, and upset us! I hate the fact its like this, as at one time I used to love to be around him and be with him! Same goes with Jenn, as she and him USED to be BESTFRIENDS!!! and now all he does is get on her nerves! All I want is to be friends with him! I mean after all we've been through together, and to be together for over a year! I don't want to lose him as a friend, I mean the first time we spilt up we stayed friends and it was good, I enjoyed hanging out and stuff and I had fun! But with him being the way he is, its just upsetting me and making everything harder on me, and I guess on him too! Well I suppose if he wants to talk to me when he gets back, I'm more than happy too! It's just up to him if he's wanting to stay friends or be a child! All I did was talk to someone at a festival, and they asked why I came to the Fest on my own! and I told them what happened! And now Ian's went off on one of his big huffs! I mean I feel really bad that his whole Australia thing-o-ma-bob went tits up! But theres no need to take it out on ya ex-girlfriend, thats just been talking to you and asking how your doing over there and hoping that your ok! GOD SORRY TO CARE YA KNOW!!! And now the fact that he's going to be living round the corner from me for a good while! I'd rather it be the case of if we see each other, to at least say hi and tlk, than to see each other and just be angry and just blank each other! I mean half of his friends are my friends! and mostly where ever I am, he's most likely to be there! And after the last email he sent me god! Right as Jenn has told me, just leave it, if he want's to be like this and act a child just let him as it shows he hasn't grown up at all, all he's grown into is a bigger dick head! As long as I have friends around me, he can't hurt me no more, and I have to show him that! I mean me and Jenn are dreading the thought that he may be out on thursday nite! prob not as if he's getting back on wednesday he'll be all jet lagged and stuff and knowing him spend the week in bed! well we can only hope! but tough shit if he is, I'm not letting the toss pot spoil my good old thursday nite out! I'm gonna get pissed and party! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! God but it has made me so worried tho! *sigh* And Steph! GOD NO NOT STEPH TOO!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *gets breath back* OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHY GOD WHY! Shell xx Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Nine Inch Nails - Head Like a Hole (1 Comment |Comment on this)